Not Easily Broken

I must admit waking up today was hard. I felt like there was no reason to be awake. That was because of yesterday. I sat outside in the cold waiting for close to five hours for something I really needed. I saw the way they looked at me, like a nobody. I kept my head high till I left still without what I needed.

Immediately I stepped out I had to deal with my emotions and it was not pretty. I kept asking myself if they knew who I am , who I would be. Hmmmmmm if only they knew but they did not. In trying to clear my head I kept asking God when. I asked him if it was necessary to go through these seasons of obscurity. Somehow I made it home and cried.

Indeed his promises can seem so far away that sometimes it feels like a tale. Somehow I made it through the rest of the day. I needed to keep my mind busy so I read two storybooks in about four hours. I could not pray, I just needed a hug and someone to tell me it would be okay. Yet somehow I wanted to alone.

In that moment I knew I had a few friends I could reach out to who would come running if I called. Yet staying in pain was easier so I smiled and pretended that I was fine. Did I feel helpless? Yes. However that feeling was solely by choice. I enjoy helping people when they are down but try to shut them out when they try to help me. Crazy right? I am trying to work on it though but sometimes as a good friend puts it, “the things just come”.

Morning came fast after a restless night, waking up was a struggle. I did not want to face my reality. So I lay there and tried to pray. I kinda did my quiet time but still refused to get out of bed. Then just as I was about to fall asleep again , I heard Him speak, “Don’t you know who you are, you are not easily broken, just like Jeremie” I found some renewed joy and energy to face the day immediately.

I am sure you are wondering who Jeremie is. Jeremie Van-Garshong , this lady’s life has helped me quite a number of times on my God girl journey. She is not my friend but in many ways her life ministers to me.

Live your life like Christ so you are the reason someone makes it out of bed. Christ was broken so we would be whole. Always know that you are not easily broken.

Much love,

Musings of a God Girl.

Live your life like Christ so you are the reason someone makes it out of bed. Christ was broken so we would be whole. Always know that you are not easily broken.